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Mt. Washington from Mt. Madison August 6th, Day:28 Wow, long...

Wed, 19 Dec 2012 23:57:27 -0500

Mt. Washington from Mt. Madison

August 6^th, Day:28

Wow, long day. Started early, around 7:15ish and it was a 13 mile day. This is we had a 2000ft. decent over 2 miles and a 3oooft. ascent over 2.5 miles. It was worth it though. Ridge walking on the Wildcats and Madison was jaw dropping. We could see Mt. Washington perfectly. Our stay at Carter Notch proved to trump tonight. Madison Spring Hut was strange. They were rude. We almost did not get work for stay. Statesboro convinced them to let us do morning work and thankfully they let us. It has been cold out here above tree line.

The White Mountains are hard to describe. Pain covers every inch of your body while hiking. Knees, feet, shoulders, and hands are shot no more than an hour into each hike. Each ascent and decent will take you no less than 1000 ft. up or down in less than a mile. This is a 19% slope grade. I do not know how anyone does it. The only reason I made it was constantly saying to the lord, “I cannot go any further!!!” At times it felt like I was floating down mountains and being taken up mountains by ski lifts. I would give up and some how a few hours later I was at the top of the mountain. It is said that the AT takes 5,000,000 steps. The cliché of saying, “just take it one step at a time” was true. If I did not have my faith, if Christ wasn’t there, I have no idea how I would have made it. I have no idea how anyone finishes it who does not cling to Christ.

A friend of mine, Nick Tallman, just hiked the AT. Before he left I tried to describe to him or give him an idea of how difficult the journey was. As graphic as I was he said it was ten times worse…

AUGUST 5th Day: 27 Said bye to the Pinkhams and headed out....

Wed, 19 Dec 2012 18:01:26 -0500

AUGUST 5^th Day: 27

Said bye to the Pinkhams and headed out. Hiked 13 miles. First 5 were in the rain and I just knew God was gonna bring the sun out and He did. We were sitting at a lookout and could see the Mountains creeping out through the clouds like monsters hiding in the darkness. And then the sun heated up and pulled the clouds higher and we could see the whole range. God has laid the clouds in the valley at night as fog, and raised them up in the heat of the day from the valley to where they belong in the sky. Just like we here on earth are here for the moment under darkness and we will soon go to heaven where we truly belong. When His Son comes again.

We hiked a ridge for a while with great views. We were the first thru-hikers to Carter Notch Hut. Man, it was gorgeous. Between carter Dome and the North peak of Wildcat Range there were two small ponds. The moon tonight is great. Got some pretty good picks. The crew here at Carter Notch is real nice. The one had quite a hangover the other was a shorter version of Nate Mealy. *(a teacher of mine from HS.)

We are like clouds in the valley at night

Awaiting the dawn

When the Son will rise up

And call us home

Where we belong…

It is amazing what the Lord will show you if you shut your mouth, rid yourself of distractions, and submit yourself to silence. His still small voice can be heard in the unsettling power of nature. Faith in God is not a blind leap it is a sure step.

Photo: “paint paradise and put up a parking...

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 23:06:40 -0400

Photo: “paint paradise and put up a parking lot”

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August 4th (2009) Day 26

Zero Day. My goal now is to add my feelings and emotions to this now. I went back and read what was my first entry. The informational stuff is nice but the emotions are that much more interesting. So this will be Facts, feelings and the following of J.T.B. “BROTUCKY’s” 2000 mile adventure of faith.

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Man, what a day. The Pinkhams took us to their dual-monthly Seniors Breakfast at Shelburne, NH town hall. It was a blast. The elderly have such a fun, clean humor. and love for life that us young folk don’t seem to share. It’s a shame. We went to Walmart to do some shopping ( always stresses me out ) and I got a little less food than needed. Trusting in the North-bounders account of the generosity of the NH huts. I had a little trouble w/ my package because my trail name was on it and not my real name, but because my Mother sorted it all out everything was fine. I took another nap today and ate much better (not as fast). Dances with Wolves was on tonight. I can relate to his “Alone” feeling. Not a bad one, but a good one. It;s hard with all my thoughts to know what is right when it comes to love and what to do with my future. There have been instances that send me back to past relationships. Some come with a warm feeling that are rooted in firm foundations, and others seem to pull at every part of me, with a sense of the unknown. One seems simple, and the other a leap of faith. God only knows. There is only a small curiosity of someone new.

The Lord is truly helping me see who He is. It is in my mind all day. I long for what He will show me next. I continue to fight the battle lines that come between me and opening the Bible and praying. Once I’m there I feel filled and before I’m there I now desire it. The bridge between is still a road block. It’s not easy, but more and more I see its worth. It truly interprets what I have seen. My eyes are being opened in a way I never knew. To life, to friendships, to commitments, passions, joys, and to God’s kingdom. It’s all His.

I love this.

I miss school, believe it or not, the day to day routine, the food, how blessed I was, the friends I had, and the community. I strangely haven’t missed youth group yet. The worship and John’s preaching, yes, but not that world. I will soon. I haven’t been away long enough yet plus they are people of God. Their friendship and love I believe will come with me. But I wasn’t as poured into them as I was into my school. Church was a haven. School was life. God molded me there, as He has begun to here.

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This entry speaks for itself.

Photo: the desk I wrote my journal entry. At the Pinkham’s...

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 11:52:32 -0400

Photo: the desk I wrote my journal entry. At the Pinkham’s House.

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AUGUST 3 (2009) Day 25

Wow. Was glad to have hiked those extra miles last night. My legs were ready to be in town and Rested. My feet were soaked and raw. There was awesome Trail Magic. Br. Pepper + Little Debbies what more could Noel ask for?!? We got to North Rd. the street the Pinkhams live on. Drew headed one way and I the other. I thought God was splitting us up, but when the Pinkhams came to get me they where he was and we picked him up. God may be using me in his life. The Pinkhams have a wonderful house they are AMAZING. They made us feel like family + right at home, ready to serve us. Praise God. We went to the Chinesse Buffet and I ate WAY too much. Felt a bit sick. Same tonight. Mrs. Pinkham made roast chicken zuccini stuffed w/ gravy mash + brocolli. Awesome dinner. I took a 2 hour nap + ate some chips. We had brownies and watched Hook and stayed up late. This is just a totally relaxing time.

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To be cared for by a complete stranger is a powerful event. Especially through things such as Trail Magic. Food, candy, soft drinks, etc. are simply placed in a container of sorts with a brief note of encouragement. There is no face or name to go with any of it. No method or way to thank those who have given it. The Pinkhams and their generousity was quite the same. Though we had a face and a name to thank, there was no way I could have thanked them enough. In fact, to try and repay them for what they did would almost be an insult. There is no amount of money that I could provide to those who provided me Trail Magic or to the Pinkhams that would have made up for what they had done. This is first because they gave in a way that wished for nothing in return. Also, the encouragement that both of these things gave me, the perseverance and the renewal of spirit, is priceless.

This is much like what God has done for us through Christ. We all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. We are headed strait for Hell. Damned for what we have done. Even the tiniest thought that enters our minds is worthy of eternal separation from God our Father. But, while we were still sinners Christ died for us. Out of His unbelievable love for us He died to glorify Himself. So, that all would see His immeasurable love and praise Him. Those who hear this great news and are granted faith by the Holy Spirit now can spend eternity with their father in Heaven. There is NOTHING we could do to repay God for what He has done. To try would be to lessen the radical love portrayed on the cross. God is more glorified if Christ’s sacrifice was a free gift.

Morning of August 2nd. _______________________ AUGUST 2nd, 2009...

Thu, 29 Dec 2011 11:53:35 -0500

Morning of August 2nd.

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AUGUST 2nd, 2009 - Day 24

Today I am no longer in MAINE. I officially crossed the NH-ME State line w/ Drew and Maine is no more. 1 down 13 States to go! Today was Sunday and rather than missing my friends at church I felt blessed to enjoy the Lord’s day w/ a different type of sermon. A 360 degree view from the peak of Goose Eye Mt. God’s power + His provision + His creation all before me. The Clouds lying low and also rising, the Sun and the Moon both in the sky, Mt. Washington in the distance, Amazing. My knee hurt just a bit today in the beginning. I took it slow but it was alright. We stopped at Gentian Pond Shelter. Awesome. almost wanted to stay, but that would have meant 11 more miles to town the next day. We walked on till a tent site and God held off the Rain till we could set up our tents. Praise Him! I talked to the Pinkhams and they seem very nice, warm, and welcoming. I do not like having to sleep in my tent, but tonight I feel tired enough to fall sound asleep.

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Standing on top of Goose Eye Mountain is a moment I will never forget. There are no words, no camera, no video to explain what it was really like. It was a day that most city folk would consider gloomy, and from the valleys it felt that way. The sent of the mountain was steep, each step thigh high, with wet make shift boards, and twisted rebar, for help in footing. One wrong move, at least one or many bones would be shattered. The mountains in the North East are not at high elevations, so they do not reach above tree level, but the weather is so fierce that it creates bald mountain tops roughly a 4000 ft. when the trees go away the wind roars and your once firm stance and trust in your legs and tears it from you as you now must learn to hold your footing amongst the erratic gusts. The gloomy day in the valley, is the most beautiful and powerful sight from the mountain top. Every movement of the Clouds, whether dormant in the valley, or whipping over the tops of myriad mountains surrounding, is breath taking. The gentle way the sun sheds its colors through a seem in the sky on the horizon and paints the white canvases with deep and creamy purples, oranges, and reds. The dark side of the mountain glooms with deep blues and greens. The weather worn trees then add an amount of grit and rage to the seen.

Whoever thinks they are strong, be still and know that the Lord is God.

"Don’t feel your way into actions, act your way into feelings."

Sat, 26 Nov 2011 11:30:41 -0500

“Don’t feel your way into actions, act your way into feelings.”

"Most people treat the Bible very politely . They have a small pocket volume, neatly bound; they put..."

Sat, 29 Oct 2011 13:21:10 -0400

“Most people treat the Bible very politely . They have a small pocket volume, neatly bound; they put a white pocket-handkerchief round it and carry it to their places of worship; when they get home, they lay it up in a drawer till next Sunday morning; then it comes out again for a little bit of a treat, and goes to chapel; that is all the poor Bible gets in the way of an airing. That is your style of entertaining this heavenly messenger. There is dust enough on some of your Bibles to write “damnation” with your fingers.”

- C.H. Spurgeon

"Careful dear, I’m only just getting started…"

Sun, 25 Sep 2011 19:31:22 -0400

“Careful dear, I’m only just getting started…”

finally out of MAINE… Biter-sweet.

Mon, 01 Aug 2011 22:23:55 -0400

finally out of MAINE… Biter-sweet.

Mt. Washington in New Hampshire from Maine, if that makes sense

Mon, 01 Aug 2011 22:22:42 -0400

Mt. Washington in New Hampshire from Maine, if that makes sense

Statesboro ___________________________ JULY...

Mon, 01 Aug 2011 22:21:17 -0400

Statesboro

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~~JULY~~ Haha!

August 1^st Day: 23

Wow. Perfect Day. God was shown’ off a bit. Woke up not really knowing how far we would go. But just decided to get up early and go for it. Last night we stayed at the Fry Notch Camp Site with a Father + Son. Father had some great stories to tell about his thru-hike he did with his wife. Anywho, we heard it was gonna be a sunny day. We summited Baldpate Mountain, In the clouds, some view beforehand. Little bit upsetting but God had a plan. We made it down to Rt. 26 just in time for Lunch. The ranger gave us Root Beer! We talked to an Arrogant man about his thru-hike (He obviously thought we were going the wrong way and had some choice things to say about trail names.) The sun came out and it was Beautiful. It got so Hot I decided to take a dip in the waterfall on the way up. We Climbed to the top of Speck Mt. Stood atop a fire tower and could see the Mahoosic Arm, Notch, and MOUNT WASHINGTON!!! Also at this point we were no more than 11 miles from the state line. We were PUMPED. So… we decide to add 5 miles to our hike that day. 2.5 miles which included the Arm and the NOTCH the “hardest” section of the AT. Wow. So heres what I saw God do. He made our hike of Baldpate cool so we would not be too worn out. He gave us views on Speck and Later on Fulling Mill Mt. AND gave us Great weather for the NOTCH. (which was prolly the most fun I have had hiking ever) So, to top it all off, God saved my life Twice. The first was I fell climbing down the arm and was saved cuz my shoe lace caught on a branch. The second was 0.5 miles from the shelter. I was tired and ready to get in for the night + made a stupid step. Fell 4 feet down and landed on my back. Twisted my ACL real bad. But I was okay. My camera and my cell phone were okay too. My head was an inch away from a sharp branch. PRAISE GOD FOR THIS DAY!.

reality of hiking _________________________ JULY 31st...

Mon, 01 Aug 2011 22:18:49 -0400

reality of hiking

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JULY 31^st DAY: 22

Woke up really early (comparatively) ate my ramen for Breakfast. Cuz I was out of Fuel I used Drew’s. We hiked 6.1 miles this morning in 2 hours 15 minutes to get to Andover. We passed Chewy. But funny we hiked down the road while trying to get a hitch and he got one before us. HA. I rode in the back of a red pick-up into town Sent my Blaze home and My letter out. Went to the General Store + got a Hamburger, sweet potato fries, half a calzone, half a meatball sub, cheetos, 2-sweet teas, and a whoopee pie for lunch. Then found out there were no fuel tanks of my Style in the town so I had to make due trying to find the cheapest non cook meals I could. But everything was SO expensive. That got irritating, But we went to the Pine Ellis Hostle to see if there was a chance he’d give us a ride. He was charging $12 BUCKS!!! And was a bit of a jerk. I was able to snag some extra gas + food from the hiker box. SCORE. God really provided. We decided to hitch. And the FIRST car to pass gave us a ride. Yet again the bed of a truck. There was an Akers Ski Sign in town but it was raining too much to get a picture. Se we hiked the 4.5 miles to the shelter in less than two hours which was cool cuz it was up-hill. Met some cool NOBOs who told us to stay at the Bird Cage – FREE! So that’s what I’m gonna do! The Guy was wearing a sweet shirt about the trail that answered all the silly questions people ask! He said he got it at Harpers Ferry, I hope to be able to find one for myself. I had the weirdest dream that mom made me come home for something for Luke and wouldn’t let me come back. Also I’ve had some Nightmares about M + the Trail. Strange.

JULY 30th Day: 21 3 weeks on the trail so far. Gosh, I...

Mon, 01 Aug 2011 22:17:03 -0400

JULY 30^th Day: 21

3 weeks on the trail so far. Gosh, I remember pondering the first day. It seemed so long but now its so much different. Slow start this morning. 2 of the hikers in the shelter were obviously lying about being thru-hikers just so they could stay in the lean-to. Bugged the crap outta me. Anywho we headed out, I was almost determined to stay at a camp site but we trekked through. We hung out on top of Blue Mnt. for an hour. Talked to John which lifted my spirits which was good because I found out my mail drop wasn’t coming till Gorham, NH. Wasn’t able to get ahold of John Murphy. We had a heck of a drop and Climb today with Moody and Hall Mt. Moody made us just as cranky as it sounded. There was a landslide and a make-shift reroute of the trail. Scary, dangerous and painful. But that night was fun. Getting to the shelter was such a relief. There was a 60yr old woman who was section hiking who was hilarious, but also had a cold =(. Also, there were some more Canadians… AGAIN!! Anyways God keeps doing some great things w/ the weather and with the views. He is so GOOD.

July 29th Day: 20 Hard to believe that tomorrow marks 3 weeks...

Mon, 01 Aug 2011 22:14:14 -0400

July 29^th Day: 20

Hard to believe that tomorrow marks 3 weeks that I have been out here. Longer than most thought I should go for. One more week I’ll be out of ME and been out for a month. I made tuna mac last night. Delicious. Still not as good as Chealsea’s but im getting there. Ate my Hiker box ceareal this morning. Filled me up + was delicious. We woke up around 9. Stayed till almost 11 but when we left we found the true Sabbath Day Pond. HA! went swimming for a couple hours, ate lunch + THE MA BOYS showed up! So Sweet. Well it was supposed to rain today but never did. Great sights from H. 17. Prolly one of my favs so far and it had a bench to sit at. There was a flyer for the High 5. And Chewbacka wrote a note to Boro and I in the gravel. WE hiked some more and made it to the summit of Benis Mnt. Chilled there + met up with Chewy + the MA Boys. Chewy met some crazy women and smoked some pot and drank blueberry Vodka with them. It made for a interesting hike down the mountain helping him in his drunkenness. Got to the shelter to find 4 people in it. Meaning 2 of us couldn’t sleep in it. We pulled straws, I got to sleep in my tent and so did Simple Jack. Ate 2 new meals: Ramen w/ mash and the hiker special “lo-mean” aka shrimp ramen with PB.

From the left: Me, Bob O’brian, and...

Thu, 28 Jul 2011 23:07:29 -0400

From the left: Me, Bob O’brian, and Statesboro

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July 28^th Day: 19

Slept in a bit this morning . Sunny and a great day for a hike. Made breakfast 2 bowls Apple Jacks, Pop tarts, yogurt, coffee, milk, orange juice, and a fried egg sandwich! Love Bob O’Brian. The girls and smoose left (forgot to mention that they came in the night before). One of the girls broke her phone but I found out she was my age and was on the trail to think. Boro and I got back to the trail at around 1 and saw chewy. He took a photo of Boro and Bob and me. It was nice to hike a short day. Met up with chewy again that night. He builds great fires. Had a good snack at the power lines today. Drews a real nice guy. I hope I can reach out to all these guys at the end. Hope the MA boys catch up. Heard loons and coyotes tonight. I love nature sounds.

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At this point on trail I began to get a bit anxious and at the same time, really start to love the trail. All that it had and offered. I was no longer scared of the noises (at least I thought I wasn’t) that I heard at night. It is amazing that when you see things for what they really are and look at them that way they no longer are so scary.

For example: Loons. Loons make a sound that is in every Halloween sound track ever. The funny thing was I had no idea what they were when I first started hiking so all my mind associated them with is fear. So sleeping in the woods at night and hearing the noise it was unsettling. That was until I found out it was basically a Duck. Haha. To imagine I was afraid of such a harmless creature.

Often times I think this way in life. My largest battle is people. I am so scared of their threats or the words they may say. I am afraid of what they may think of me. When in the big picture, words are just scary noises. They hurt, they induce fear, and cause us to become timid. Yet when looked at from eternity we will look back and see that they are merely people. Especially when we look at it from God’s view. He is on the side of those who do his will. If you offer yourself up to Him, love Him and do His will he will give you the power of His Holy Spirit. You become an alien in this world and everyone is as scary as a duck. Cuz God is a big grizzly bear and he’s on your side against those little ducks haha.

Live in peace and not in Fear. How? Do the will of the Lord in the midst of your fear. No matter what. For that is what brings assurance and confidence in salvation, and because one day you’ll see that this life is just ducks.

view from the Gulf Pond Lodge

Wed, 27 Jul 2011 18:36:43 -0400

view from the Gulf Pond Lodge

JulY 27th Day: 18 Everyone in the shelter last night was strange...

Wed, 27 Jul 2011 18:35:04 -0400

JulY 27^th Day: 18

Everyone in the shelter last night was strange and not too friendly. Most of the NOBO’s ive seen tend to be real depressed like they don’t want to be out here anymore. I DO NOT WANT TO BECOME THAT! I want to be like “Double Bags” who walked 38miles in the rain and was still smilin’. So I heard that Grizz + J got off the trail. Walked out of the 100 mile backwards in fact. Same with pidgeon. Im well past quittin but sure am ready for a rest. Only did 2 miles to get to Rangley, ME. Cute little town. Ate at the Red Onion. GREAT PIZZA yet again in Maine. The French fries reminded me of Crow Point in Hingham. I stayed at Gulf Pond Lodge this evening. Great views, canoeing, and food. Well worth the stay. While out on the canoe there was a camp across the lake from us. Asked the owner of the hostel about it. It was an old summer school camp where students took a class like math during their summer camp. It was so cool. He said that originally there were two camps. A boys on one side of the lake and a girls on the other. O the good old days right? More and more I want to open a CAMP. The man who owns this place knew a guy who owned a lobster company in Hingham Harbor. Started it in the Depression for food for his family. Bob O’brien (the owner of GPL and looked like Andrew Jackson) worked in North Weymouth. Well I grubbed on some Red Sox ice cream and said NO to the whiskey offered to me by a Korean who cant speak English. He had two note cards with him. One said, “can you take me to the Appalachian Trail?” and the second said, “need food can you take me to town”. I ended up sharing my faith w/ him that I was a Christian. God set it all up. I couldn’t share my faith but I was able to tell him about it. I hope God uses it in his life.

Kid gave me a Fig Newton. This is a french canadian kid I met...

Wed, 27 Jul 2011 18:30:40 -0400

Kid gave me a Fig Newton. This is a french canadian kid I met along with his camp group. They were carrying a privy, in pieces, to a shelter site.

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July 26^th Day: 17

Well I got more word between last night + this morning. GOD showed me Romans. I never knew how full it was of life stuff. I had a great morning. Woke up before everyone and got to read Gods Word. Had a good Breakfast and headed out. LONG DAY. 17 miles up down etc. Wow. Ive started to hike w/ Statesboro. Good Guy. We trekked all day today. A bit of a disappointed by the top of Saddleback Mt. Cuz we were in the clouds. Though ive never seen God’s power like that before. Standing in a Cloud with winds going 50 mph. hatching a cloud roll by. Getting back down the mountain and back into the rain we stopped at the Poplar Ridge Lean-to where we met Chewbacka and friends. Haha they refused to hike in the rian. We talked some sense into them cuz they had been there for 2 days! Well my knees kill and my body needs a bit more rest like mom and dad said so im taking a 2 mi. day w/ Boro. Were gonna split the cost of food and stuff. Ive been staying strong w/ my faith. Which has been good. God continues to have his hand over me + also take me away for some alone time. Stayed at the Piazza Rock Lean-to. Chewy made a huge fire.

July 25th Day: 16 Woke up. Rent wanted me to call. They asked if...

Mon, 25 Jul 2011 23:17:36 -0400

July 25^th Day: 16

Woke up. Rent wanted me to call. They asked if I wanted to take a zero again. Told them I was a bit antsy and felt good. For resupply I bought fresh bakery bread, peanut butter, bananas, a tub of fluff, and honey!!! Made breakfast for me: 10 sausage bagels + CC. withe the TANG and coffee. Left over Pizza from Statesboro. It was Delicious. We all piled into the van (8 in a 5 seater) and headed out around 11. Mailed some stuff home. bit expensive. I want to get more in the word + read my book more. My fluff exploded in my food bag and got over everything! It was awefull. But its nice to have more than less food. There was a strange camp group of kids there. Before they ate they stood in a circle and held hands then the leader instead of asking someone to pray had everyone say a positive thought… new agey eh? Lunch and Dinner were great got to eat the leftovers of the camp kid grub. Went and looked at the Stars… PRAISE GOD!! So wonderful.

-Hiking w/ MA boys + Boro is Nice. God def. slowed me down to talk a couple times. Love Him. Want more word. Stayed at the Spalding Mountain Lean-to.

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Stars in Maine are hard to comprehend. Starring at them for a while gives you a head ache because your eyes can’t stay focused on one layer of stars. It was truly beautiful. (this was the beginning of my love of camping and the start of the end of my love for civilization haha! But seriously).

Note: Never carry a tub of fluff in a bag, get the jar, its worth the extra weight.

There is nothing like a peanut butter, fluff, banana, and honey sandwich, unless you add nutella.

So onto the serious. A man named Edward Morris gave me a book to read while I was on the trail. It was called “A Quest for More” by Paul David Tripp. It had a huge influence on me because it caused me to think. Think about why I sinned, why I am who I am, helped me ask myself hard questions, some with answers I didn’t even want to admit. It was the perfect time for me to read it and I thank God that He told Ed that this was the book for me to read.

Being in the woods away from everyone made it strangely easy to be blatantly honest with God and myself. It was funny how it worked. I mean I can go off and be alone in my room at home, but there is something about being in the woods… it exfoliated my every barrier that I had built up over the years for protection. Protection from what? From having to admit to myself that I was not as good a person as I thought I was.

I’m still searching for fragments of the book (on the AT after you read something you tear out the pages and burn them or send them home to keep your pack as light as possible.) I know where the ending is, I just do not know where the start is, Where the major mental and spiritual battles are written in the pages.

I have been down and depressed several times in my life, the only time I found healing was NOT when I convinced myself how great I was, NOR when I told myself how awful I was. It was when I got a clear picture of who I was. The nasty gritty tough grimy sticky picture.

I know that God loved me right then and there on that trail, I didn’t have to change, I have because I want to be my best for the one who I love.

from the 23rd

Sun, 24 Jul 2011 22:43:57 -0400

from the 23rd